RMORGAN.: July 2009

did i set myself up?

so yeah, this blog is gonna be about , my oldfavorite <3 & the one to be forgotten :)

my olddie :
so basically , i miss you ! well , not really . just the old you :) you're so drugged out and stuff . . you're too busy with your new friends . honestly , just remember the ones who were here in the beginning . i miss our late night convo's about heartbreaks , the days of taking weirdpictures & more importantly , just having you there to listen . i try called you , try messaging you - but you never seeem to try and come in contact with me . . like how am i supposed to feel? i miss everything you were , but i hate everything you're now . . .

hopefully forgotten :
so i started thinking about it , why is it always me now? i try hanging out like you wanted, but you tell me to go with THEM and not you .. . you tell me to save a spot beside me and all you do is ignore me & show up late . you tell me that you like me , but you don't show it at all . what happened to the guy that always came back when i asked him to ? the one that stayed with me even though after i left he'd be alone? it's like you never wanna be around me anymore . . and yesterday proved exactly THAT to me . . you could have stayed , but you didn't . you could have gave me company but instead i had to call someone. it's like i can never be apart of your life, i'm just off to the side waiting for call . i'm not gonna be your " run to " girl . the girl that just waits around for you to finally notice her , i won't just sit here and take it . you either want me , or you don't . i've been truthful to you , it only makes sense you do it back. i try so hard to make "us" work , but now i'm getting tired of chasing something that won't chase me back.. if i'm just a rebound thats there when you need a girl , then you've chose the wrong one . i thought you were real , better yet i thought WE were real . i guess it's too quick to judge . things like this take time , but time isn't what this really needs .. .

Omg

Today I was hanging out with the cutest boy ever. when he smiles he gives me the butterflies. oh how I long for the day where we can finally be together. Hand in hand...... Smiley face.

jaynine ?

I remember the day you first told me that I was the one that had your heart . . ♥

from that day forth I knew that nothing would ever come and tear us apart . so then people try to warn me about you , said that I should never trust you . but so stupid me, I didn't listen then I let myself go fall in love with you . .. What happened to us ? you were supposed to be my future , but do I really have to take it right back . . Were you really in love ? or was I just a game to prove to yourself you could get a me . You're more beautiful than anything in this world , more precious than the rarest diamond or pearl . & even though we didn't work out together -you're still my sunset , set , set ,set . & I know that you and I are two worlds apart , but you'll always be the one to have my heart . I'm gonna love you for now and forever , 'cause you're my sunset , set , set, set , set . Your innocent smile used to drive me wild , even though you ain't innocent at all , & now I feel so stupid 'cause I'm the only girl that ever loved you even with all your flaws . . even your best friend questioned why I still wanted to be with you after knowing your past . . but he didn't understand in knowing your past was why I thought we could pass . . what happened to us? we had something special but was I not good enough for you? . . were you really in love ? catch some flowers fly because without even trying, I still ended up hurting you and I'm sorry . . maybe one day we'll end up talking again , maybe one day we'll go back to being just friends. . . promised to love you baby 'til my life ends , no matter what happened between me and you , i'll always be the girl that you could run to . . I loved you then , I love you now and forever . .

PARANOOOOID !

OMGD , there's like SIX nasty flies in my room . .
I'M GONNA DIE! I HAATE BUGS WITH A PASSIOOON !
MY MOM BETTER COME ND KILL THEM OR
I'M SLEEPING ON THE COUCH ! AAAAAAAAAH!
:( K going to the couch , i'll update tmrw !

<3 albertposis .

hola ,

so i spent the beautiful day indoors . .. yaaah , i know ! :( i wanted to go the fireworks, but plans changed, C L E A R L Y! hahaha . Mmm , yeah . it's kinda sorta boiling & i'm pretty much dying here . OMAHG , i tried sleeeping & it's hopeless so i won't even bother ! i is still babysitting, almost more THAN TWENTY HOURS, literally. 9am - 2am. . probably THREE! :@ better get paid for this , hahaha fail . nothing to blog about , so let's talk about my day i guess ? mhhhhm , let's start .

so this morning , approximately nine fourty whatever - i was woken up to BABYSIT ! mhhhm , then headed for my computer ! LAAWL , updated the ipod , took a shower & facebook :$ & i talked things over with some loser , kinda glad i did . kinda sorta made everything clear or whatever you call it .. .haha , i noticed i say " kinda & HAHAHHAHA " ALOOOOT , laame i know ♥ ! mm , oh ! today i started talking to a so-called " long lost friend, " sorta speak. HAHAHA , uhm we'll just name this person peanut . . .TAHAHAHHA , mm yeah i really miss this person . but yeah , nevermind :) we started talking about old memories , the funny & sad ones . peanut remembered all our nicknames, what a surprise . . LOLOL. we were tight in grade eight and kinda before that , but after a fight it all ended . uhm, yeah peanut went to the fireworks , so we texted all day basically . . peanut reminded me about " reepiss the rapist & marpoo the martian ! " , " peanut & butter " , " homo & turtle " silly, silly !

ROFLCOPTER , so today while i was trying to put ryzel to sleeep & i look over at rhys . . . and her freaking DS is in the front part of her pants ! HAHAHAHAHHAHA , i was like... " rhys , . .. your DS! " and she goes , " yeah , i know ! i have no pockets . .. " HAHAHAHHA FAIL / honestly .. . today was the funnest day by myself . .. lols , i know i'm weird , but i started reading old chat logs , nexopia blogs & old videos , sooo funny ! :D i miss my lg bff , JAS-KAVEE , hahahah <>

memory lane is calling my name ;